Sunday, June 24th, 2012

This morning I woke up feeling like it was going to be a pretty normal Sunday. I'd lay around in bed, have Christopher bring me lunch, watch movies - I watched the same movie twice actually, "Beastly," do some homework, and, of course, not see Trevor. Not seeing him on Sundays is pretty usual though. He's always at Colten's and when he leaves, Colten AND Hunter usually come back to his house to stay. I mean don't get me wrong, Colten and Hunter are cool and they are fun to be around but sometimes I don't always want to be apart of "bro-time."

Typically, when I'm at Trevor's and he has Colten, Hunter, or Lane over all they do is play video games; however, if I am there, Trevor never ignores me or anything like that. Depending on the amount its been since we had last seen each other, sometimes he doesn't even play when his friends are over. Which, obviously, makes me feel good :)

When they do play video games though, it's never the pleasant kind like NCAA football. No no, its always Modern Warfare, Borderlands, or some other violent shooting game. I can't watch for too long either. I always get nightmares when I watch for too long. Sometimes I just take a nap on his bed. Even then, that's sometimes difficult because they like to play with the volume really loud. Not that they turn it up on purpose; I think it's just because they are guys.  Oh and there will ALWAYS be yelling and cursing at the screen involved. Trevor usually has a wide variety of different phrases that he yells. Actually, he doesn't really yell; not like a raging yell or anything. But when something doesn't go "according to plan" on a game, his outbursts are always the funniest. Lane never really says anything. He'll just sit there and listen to everyone else get mad and let out the occasional chuckle. But Colten.. the ONLY thing Colten will say is "Awwww... what a dick-hole!" Never fails. Sometimes he mixes the phrase up a little bit, but the word "dick-hole" is always used, and I mean ALWAYS.

I can't complain too much though because in the end, I'm just happy to see my baby. No matter what shape, form, or fashion it may be, I'll always jump on every opportunity I get to see him. I don't care if he is playing a video game and paying no attention at all. Just as long as that arm is wrapped around me and I can hear his heartbeat then I am the happiest girl in the world. When I'm not mad at him for God knows what, he gives me a feeling of happiness that a word really can't describe. Nothing could ever be more important. I do miss every moment that I am not with him.

I loved him then and I love him still. Always have, always will.